Prose in action II - Just halt and watch

Recently I realised that time have been passing by really fast. Maybe that or I hav been too busy. And when this happens, it means I wld be more prone to headaches, not to mention being abit short tempered. Some pple, or rather friends complain that I ignore them too much. Haiz.. I hav little energy to try to convince them otherwise. When I start ignoring pple and shutting myself up, it almost always means I'm trying to destress. I hardly log in msn now bcos I cant stand it when 10 windows pop up and half of them requires my full attention. Makes me giddy. I wld very much prefer a quiet lengthy chat with a friend or two. Alrite, maybe I do deserve all the scoldings from the friends I have 'neglected'. Actually I wld like to spend more quiet time by myself and I'm considering quiting an online game which I have been playing for ages. If it had not got itself into such a huge mess, I wld have gladly created a new character unknown to all and start enjoying the coolness of silence in the midst of a crowd. But anyways, recently I wld prefer watching FMA on my computer or jus reading comics on my snug bed. BOO to all those pple who stress me out =p

The home, is not a very warm place for me to be in. If it werent for my comfortable bed and my 3 pillows, I wld have prefered to camp in a library that has a small coffee cafe. I hate the phone especially, whether or not it is calling or answering. And I really hate it when my grandma smokes in the living room or my mum being engaged in some animated conversation with some pple over the phone for 5hrs. Not forgetting my sister who keeps barging into my room without knocking and borrow all my things without replacing them. As for my brother, I dont think I wld notice the difference if he is out for camp or locked in his room mugging. Lastly, I think I only see my dad on sunday mornings, when he chats with my brother at the top of his voice asking if he needed money or his computer needed upgrade or not. Cant recall my dad asking me any of these. Well, exam weeks are the most amusing time of all. Since my mum doesnt even know how many subjects I'm still taking and my dad still has this impression that I will get into pharmacy fac though I told him like since 4mths ago I dont offer biology anymore. But I dont think he gets the fact that biology at 'a' lvls is a prerequisite for pharmy.

But on the whole, I still enjoy my life... haha, occasionally meeting a few people who wld brighten up my day. And my mum really isnt that bad save for the fact that she only cooks lunch everyday and I usually have lunch in school. And u wld think I have the most generous and cool dad except that he installs the latest soft/hardware on my bro's PC which isnt on for more than 7hrs per week or buy 2 mini (really mini) laser printers and keep it on his shelf for 2yrs while constantly refusing my request to have it installed on my PC. haha...

So, except for the fact that my friends arent too happy with the way i destress (being alone, and thus 'ignoring' them) and threaten to terminate the friendship, my life is really as nornal as it can be.

Once in a while, love gives you a fairytale in life.
I think I had better read some fairytales by Enid Blyton while waiting for some fairy tales to happen. hehe..
But still, once in a blue moon, a few surprisingly sweet words still comes through like sunlight through a prolonged overcast sky. Peeking so beautifully. I'll be remembering them for long and amuse myself with them whenever the grey clouds are back again. =)

ended in whispers~
(oit, think more romantically =p do u need me to blow softly into ur ears? =x)

Prose in action - Le falto (continued)

Enough of poems, I shall write some prose now.. haha. First of all, to the 2 devils who read my blog illegally =x I shan't write a poem to scold u now... hehe.. but just dont recite my poems to me everytime u c me =.= If not I'll give u 2 a flying kick each =x and rmbr the thing about the link HOR.. =x

Spain is considered a very romantic place for the western romantists, not sure what kind of a place a singaporean romantist who consider romantic. Probably any place under a big hanging bridge with lots of glitter. In case u r wondering wad kind of place I find romantic...well...wad about a kitchen? =p

I'll continue the nxt time =p
---------------------------------------------it's now the 'nxt time' =p
8 July 2005

I still think the kitchen is a romantic place =p and I think cooking breakfast is a very romantic thing to do.. haha... as for the man cooking and woman kacau part =x I think better avoid that kind of romantism if u wake up one day with an especially empty stomach =x Nonethless, probably some other things wld fill u up while in the kitchen =x

I often picture myself owning a house with a front garden and a backyard. And I imagine a silly scene whr I wld pick up the morning papers while some dog come chasing after me while I do so =x hehe...well, I'm scared of dogs =p So i need a muscular and tanned man in a white tee shirt and ruffled hair holding a fresh cup of coffee to shield me from the dog =x Talking about things I'm scared of (few things scare me =x for I think I am often too uninterested to c if I'm scared of it ornot, prefering to use my energy on something more meaningful), I'm really terrified of anything that goes buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. It freaks me out. It makes me lose all my 'pose' and my sense and my nerve and my hair and my voice. So things which buzz includes bees, wasps, big queen ants, beetles, cockroaches, and alarm clocks. But the bees/wasps is really the king. I wld go nuts. You probably think the bee hold a knife if u ever happen to be in the same room as me when a bee flies in. As recent as yesterday, I had an awful enounter with a nest of soon-to-be-killed-by-insecticide hornets in school. I think I nearly cried. I wld have gladly ran and hid in the gents if my friend werent with me. And I got ticked off by a certain teacher for stamping my feet when a hornet tried to build its new home under the seat I'm having. Completely ungentlemanly T_T =x and embarassing for me, and I didnt try to explain that the hornet had mistook my shoelace for a kind of leaf/flower/plant/or anything it can poke its head into.

Back to breakfast =x If I were asked to cook breakfast, I think I wld cook......I mean slip in some bread into the toaster =x haha...perhaps if the day really comes, I'll get the man to do the job =x Unless he doesnt mind toast every morning...muahaha, honestly I dont like bread, haha, I wld prefer something like sushi for breakfast =p something exotic...hehe but I'm jus plain lazy...sometimes I dont even breakfast =p I just grab some carrot juice or nescafe at the nearest 7eleven =x but i'll still cook, for the man =x if i have the chance =x

Just smile, be naughty, and be romantic =p

A poem

Well, this poem is not by me, I found it on a webbie.. hehe
It's the 1st and only thing on my blog which didnt originate from me =x But I love certain phrases in this poem though i cant say the same for the other lines =x hehe...but just enjoy.... and try to picture the poem in ur mind =p

To melt and be like a running brook
That sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart
And give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer
For the beloved in your heart
And a song of praise upon your lips.

~ Kahlil Gibran ~

O my heartless Light!

It is July again. Let me celebrate the anniversary of my blog with my chronic disease of melancholy.

Light!

Let me find you.

Let me hold you.

Let me end my endless nights!

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O my dear Light,

Stop flickering playfully,

Please answer my prayers and dry my tears,

You had made me run long miles in the winding forest,

night after night.

-

You lighted up and you died out,

and you died out and lighted up.

I flew and I galloped

and I chased and I followed

but when I ever got so near,

I thought I could hold you in my hands,

Why

do You have to disappear?

-

O my elfish Light,

stop fluttering heartlessly

and end my endless nights!

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I actually wrote the above ytd. After mulling for the whole night, reading some things this morning and mulling again, I decided that, well, after running wildly in the night for so long, I have already gotten used to it. So,

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O my wild night!

My never ending wild night,

I'm caught in a frenzy,

perhaps your darkness can soothe me.

-

Be gone my elfish Light!

For you lighted up the forest

and made me see the beastly me.

Perhaps you didnt appear for me to see,

for while I was chasing you,

You were chasing She.

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If in no Light I cant see with my eyes,

my Heart, I shall be using thee,

for I have Eyes that have blinded me.

-

Ah my Heart,

please give me some directions,

but please dont lead me blindlessly

like my flickering Light had led me.

Through the thistles and the nettles I have gone

and I'm already made weary.

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So, my Heart,

lead me in this darkness

in this unfathomable darkness.