6pm just woke up, just finished dinner.

At 5.30pm I was planning to write something but I typed a few sentences and realised I'm not in the mood to write anything. Today had been another normal day, just that the exams leaves everyone in a tensed mood and I wouldnt take a gamble to pluck the taut strings. So.. I'm just lazing around on my blog while everyone else is mugging away.

I'm not feeling upset. I'm just not thinking. I read a passage the other day. It tells us that what makes us give up is not failure, but tiredness. Hmm... I'm tired. To the extent of not thinking. If I could draw a picture, I would draw a person walking on a path, while arrows are being shot through him. Well, what I mean is, I'm letting things shoot through me and feeling nothing. Not that I'm feeling completely nothing, but I learnt that to give in to feelings is an unwise thing to do. But I'm not gearing up any negative feelings. I'm just, well, feeling nothing. Or rather, felt a thing for a fraction of a second and then...returned to normal. As should be the sensible thing to do. But..love is not about sensibility and I'm out of the topic.

But the fact remains that I updated my blog with something that's not cheerful. So... I'm really not a person of principles?

I had a few bad dreams last night and the worst one was a about a ghost dragging me off my bed. Now that I think of it, it appears a little funny. But I assure you that I was darn scared when I had dreamt it. And it was the first time (at least in my memory) that I woke up with a terrible urge to call someone and tell him that I just had a bad dream. But... well, obviously I didnt and now I feel a wee bit embarrassed for feeling so.

On a lighter note, I'll now make a list of my secret ambitions. And another list of what I really wanna be. The difference between the 2 lists is that the 1st list contains fantansy while the 2nd list can be achievable if I tried hard enough.

The list(s) is in no order of merit. ^^

List 1:
#1: FBI, a really cool one, complete with guns and bombs and murders and cars and all.
#2: A powerful witch. With a smirk. In the medieval times.
#3: A kung-fu expert (preferably those kind with a sad past) living in solitude. (The movie, Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon should give a vague idea.)
#4: A bomb defuser. (preferably with long sexy legs and porcelain complexion. You know Kristanna Loken? =p)
#5: An imperial concubine. (conditions apply. 1) the emperor must be young and dashing 2) the emperor must be devoted to me =x 3) there must be a lot of odds for us to overcome)
#6: An ancient egyptian princess. Alluring. (a note of interest: The Mummy is 1 of my fav movie)
#7: An elf. (I really love enid blyton but I dont read them anymore.)
#8: Or a fairy
#9: Or a greek goddess =p
#10: Or a chinese deity! 太上老君及及如玉令！I dont mind being a Taoist priest either. ^^ I read too much 聊 齋 誌 異. =p
#10: A hollywood star (this one may be quite common. Well, I'm just another girl)
#11: A lady, belonging to the Victorian Era. Waiting for my gentleman. =p (I'm suddenly reminded of Shakepeare. But... shakespeare is Elizabethan Era. But i picked Victorian Era bcos of something called romanticism.)
#12: A military personnel. In fact, any. I just love the military. (I'm too short to become an SAF pilot la. T_T T_T T_T I got the application form and realised I'm too short. =.=)


List 2:
#1: An archeologist.
#2: A historian. hehe.
#3: A paleontologist
#4: An astronomer. (I dont like the 10th planet, but it has a moon. Yewww... so beautiful. Moons are romantic :p)
#5: Wildlife expert =D
#6: Travel writer
#7: Chess exponent
#8: Mythologist
#9: A stage actress or soap opera singer.
#10: Criminologist!
#11: Disaster relief worker.

=> One must take note that I dont really fancy saving the world. =p Whatever I do, I ask for emotional rewards.

One can see from the lists, that my studies contribute nothing much towards achieving my, well, desires. But, I assure everyone that for every single thing I listed above, I spent a good part of my life researching, er..maybe not researching, but reading intensively on them. hehe. It's the only thing I can do, read about my interests. =( And now I must read about how glucose molecules form bonds with water molecules.