When you feel so tiny

Alas, I cant help feeling tiny, unread, ignorant, naive. Hahaha...I guess this means there is a lack of confidence somewhere. The more people I know the worse I feel. Especially in front of such a confident, know-all guy that I am fond of, I feel that I am shrinking at an alarming rate.

I cant write romantic things. I cant cry over touching stories. I cant flaunt my knowledge on technical stuff (cos i dun hav the knowledge in the 1st place) and I cant talk about the greatest artists in the 18th century. I cant explain the function of a case cooler without sounding like a bubblebrained beach bum and I cant make a comment without sounding like I am flirting.

Alas, I feel so tiny. So eager to prove yet so tactless in the process. Like someone at the bottom of the well, so impressed by the spot of sunlight above his head. Leaping, jumping and grabbing the space above his head in glee. We all know it is a futile attempt to catch sunlight in fists or to get out of the well by mere jumping. We all know. But the person in the well wont know.