晴天

I like Jay Chou's songs, I bought almost all the early albums, which includes MVs, but lazy as I am, I nvr watch them. Today, halfway through my work, at 11pm++, I decided to watch the MV of 童话, but it was taking a long time to load =x so I played the MV of my favourite song, 晴天。I dont like listening to songs, bcos I dont like being lost in them. Feels...vulnerable. I remember the 1st ever CD I bought was stephanie sun's album, with the song 逃亡. It was the theme song of a taiwan serial drama I liked, and the moment I heard it, I told myself I must buy the CD. I lost myself in it. And I didnt tell any1 I liked that song =x I listened to it everynight quietly before I sleep. Then there was a long period before I bought my next 2 CDs for the sake of 2 songs, 晴天 and 轨迹. This time, it was because my ex-secret lover, lolz, loved these 2 songs. He puts the lyrics on his msn nick, hums them all the time and one fine day, I decided to buy the albums and listen to them. It has been a long time since I met him. Actually not that long. Years after graduation, I met him by chance at Heeren, it was the eve of national day, just last aug. Xinlin and Linda were with me and witnessed it all. =x We were walking then he just walked past me, with his friends. And..er, well, xl and linda thought they were watching an MV =x We held the glance for very long, but we continued walking. I wonder if you can imagine the scene, haha. Haiz... I havent thought of it since that day. But listening to 晴天 now, made me think of him, inevitably, and I begin to think of the old times. He is in many ways like a friend I know now. He was a gd friend too. Those kind of good guys who can make u feel warmth. We shared a number of jokes, a number of interests, even shared the same duties in school. But we never crossed the line. I nvr told him explicitly, but he knew. Partly bcos of ni-jie, till now, I wonder if it was a gd thing that happened, or bad. I have a friendster account now because he wanted me to sign up. I went to church because he believes in it. And I began the habit of signing to msn daily, bcos he is always thr. But now, he doesnt sign in anymore. =) And my no. of contacts have since tripled. When I'm too tired to think, I take to music. Cultivated this habit because of him too. haha. I used to listen to his favourite songs whenever I miss him. I used to wonder what he was thinking, when he listened to those songs. So gentle. Him, and the song. haha. Of course, I'm surprised how fast time had flown. Now that I think of it, it seems that tomorrow morning I'm gonna to collect the M.D. for him again. But... even the school has been demolished, lolz. Martyrdom, that was his faith. Perhaps it was wrong of me to try to change myself to suit him. I never attended church since. I wouldnt think of him in the same way again. Not bcos I dont like him anymore, but, it's very very mild now, to the extent of non-existence. I can still smile, whenever I think of how he smiles, how blur he looks when I talk very fast. lolz. It's a wonder how much I can recall, just by listening to one song. And all these will be forgotten again when I return to my work.

haha~