A thousand problems, boo them all, T_T

Not for the 1st time, I sign in to my blog and find nothing to say. haha. (this is a way to have something to say actually =x u start by saying u have nth to say =x)

Had a nice lengthy chat with deejay and do-monster on msn, tho do-monster was making stupid comments like 'u all crazy la', 'LOL', 'WAH LAO', but still, it has been a long time since I had such a hearty chat with pple le. haha. And I sprouted lots of nonsense, hahaha. It perks pple up considerably, suddenly getting questioned by pple abt my attitude (rather hurtful, but well, literary pple are always misunderstood =x). Geez...I'm trying to cheer myself up T_T

Recently I'm getting less tolerent and more irritable and fall out with pple easily. Oh gosh, this isnt the way to behave, guess the stress is making me abnormal, my tolerance is abt as big as a teacup now. And pple thinks I hav an attitude prob. haha. psst, I despise pple talking behind my back. Just tell me straight in my face gallantly. But honestly, if 20 comes and tell me this, well, I just hav to say that it is because pple dont understand me. In any case, I'm just gonna laugh it off. Haiz... cry it off probably, BUT no way I'm gonna show my weak side to pple who have a colored perception of me =x There are always sucky pple ard =x
But....but =x, I really see a difference speaking with 'grown-ups' and 'immature pple'. When I see pple 耍孩子气, acting like 'bitches', I'm so sorry I have to use this word, but I simply cant find a better way to put that, I feel well, a little disgusted. And the recent forums, I see pple totally disgracing themselves, and hmmm, the worst thing is, these pple sit around me. o_O

I recently see an old friend of 10yrs, whom I have fell out with some months ago, and, all the feelings came back, I feel abit upset, but I just darent go up and say 'how r u doing?'. But that aside, I'm haiz..... back to being feeling lazy again. Lazy to think, lazy to feel upset, lazy to quarrel with pple, lazy to get angry, lazy to be competitive (/flex =x), and.... on top of all these, I'm feeling rather cheery. Just some things which I need to let go, but cant bear to. Silly.

I'm getting rather misunderstood by pple ard me. And I dont think I wanan go and convince them otherwise =x But not putting feelings on my face doesnt mean I dont get upset or angry. And I miss my old school mates T_T, and my squad mates, somehow, they dont say things like "you are diferent from US de laa". I'm rather taken aback, I'm as old as u r, take the same subjects as you, live in the same country as u, eat the same food from the same canteen, and exactly how different I am from u pple? Isnt that too prejudiced against me? I'm alienated. Boo. Different interests then. If u think I'm different then I'm different. Anyway, how many pple think they are similar to Einstein or Shakespeare? =x Ok, I'm over-rating myself, haha.

Anyway, like domon pointed out, I may be thinking too much, and er, maybe it's just the occassional and inevitable unhappiness between pple. hoho. On the other hand, a misunderstood poet actually sounds sentimental =x haha. And all these are actually only 1 fraction of what I;m thinking and feeling now. If only I have time, and find the right person with the right patience =x I cld nag on and on for hours =x hahaha. I'm not aiming to be different. I'm just who I am. =p
It's impossible to be accepted by everyone. Altho Disney says it's rather fun to do the impossible =p, hehe. But I shant put my hopes on that =x. The old title of my blog is Lead a comfortable life, so I shld just try to make myself comfortable, haha.

And, last of all, luckily not alot of pple read my blog.