Looking for peace (I)

The time now is 12.24am. Not a very nice time to write an essay on my blog. But as normal, I like to clear things in my head before I sleep.

Anyone who spends time to think about speaking or writing or communicating would know that silence is a very powerful tool. In a speech we call it power pause. In a story, we call it melancholoy or 失意美. I forgot the right term to use it =.= Something to do with tragic and beauty. In a relationship, they call it time-out.

Well, I think, silence does good to anything saturated. Example, you like chocolate. You found a new brand which leaves u craving for more and more. After 2 months, it becomes a routine. A routine is never good bcos it is boring. Something less long lasting but more achievable than love is called interest. And interest is opposite to boredom. So, you lose interest in the chocolate, but u sorta like it and sometimes u dont feel gd by ignoring ur daily feedings of chocolate. But dats most probably because you havent found a new brand of chocolate. If chocolates could cry, nobody would make them. Poor chocolate. They yearned to be loved.

Back to my point on silence. In real life, it is very unlikely that you can hold silence long enough for maximum impact. You know, it's like rubber band. It pull it soft, obviously it doesnt break, it will go back to the original shape. Then you would have wasted ur efforts in pulling it. Hence, we have to pull it so hard our hands hurt. Ouch. So, silent game is not to be played by everyone. Of course the impact that you intended it to be may turn out opposite. Which means the rubber band breaks. Ideally the rubber band should 'bounce' back with maximum impact. I warn you all not to try it with a rubber that is not strong enough. The result could be imgained. You break it.

Girls like to talk in a subtle way and expect pple (mainly guys) to catch the hints. Often we think too highly of guys. But then, it's still our nature to talk in riddles. Like we say no, it is not actually no but it could mean, maybe, it could mean yes, it could mean I duno, or it could mean no itself, of cos, lolz. But you get my point eh? =x I need to keep my essay short =x

But sometimes we allow ourselves to hope too much. I thought, in such cases, guys are more practical. Either that or they have an inborn talent to conceal their real emotions and act 潇洒. I think it is the latter. But I musnt be too hopeful. Sometimes facts are presented in front of you. These facts are something you wish not to accept. Women often make the choice of accepting it and crying over it and saying we will get over it, feminist will say 'down with male chauvanist pigs!' and girlish girls will say 'but you dont understand, I like him T_T'. But they all secretly hope that somehow the truth will reverse. Well, we are always hopeful, sometimes to the extent of delusional and when things remains, we cry more. When things reverse in the tiniest bit, we act like every odd day is a christmas holiday (now this is really something I wish). But hmm, it's gd to be clear headed and think properly. You cant possibly ignore it when a plate of something really bad smelling (for me, dat wld be cheese) is placed under your nose for shooooo shooooo long.

So, how does the point about dealing with truth connect with using silence as a tool?
Dealing with the truth is the before. Using silence, is one of an after-paths, after dealing with truth. Er, it's ok if you dont get this point. But the thing is, decisions decisions, have to be made wisely. Words too, have to be chosen wisely. Some words are hurting. But the truth below the absence of words, i.e. silence, can be even more hurtful. So, an open board like is less likely to hurt than a below board lie. A lot of magazines says there's no way to hurt a woman gently. Well, but it depends on how smart that woman is. (But guys always secretly think they are smarter. No matter wad =x)

Well... I look forward to future. I always do. Bcos there is nothing in the present which I think I would want to preserve. Forward looking. Forward looking! I will start chanting this so that it will happen. I wonder which part of my personality contributed to this kind of thinking. =x