Teamwork

I have a bad attitude...lolz. Pity the pple working in the same PW group as me. And worst of all they are using my proposal..lolz. Actually I hate explaining the same concept over and over again. I dont know what they didnt understand about my proposal. I spent a 1 month+ researching and presenting them with the data, after all the noddings and stuff, one fine meeting a member suddenly commented, "Actually arh, I duno what this project is all about!" I almost wanted to vomit blood. Although it is my proposal, I do want my members to be involved in the thinking and researching too. I want them to have a firm grasp of the topic we are on and give me fresh ideas. I dont want to be the one orientating, I need the whole crew to push the whole project forward. I need them to be as in touch with the project as I am. It's never enough to only have 1 person thinking. I cant possibly come up with something foolproof. But if my members dont even understand what my proposal is all about, if they are still asking the aim of the project, how are they going to help me find the loopholes and help perfect our research? Recently they called for many meaningless and unorganized meetings. With no agenda prepared before hand. I refuse to attend such meetings. It's quite a waste of time, in my opinion. I'm lazy to draft the agenda for them too. =) Last few meetings I simply gave them a few topics and asked them to research on it. That was 1 month ago. Till now, I havent seen any of those yet. Think we ought to work on the resource file already, told them a few times, yet they didnt bother to bring it on the meetings. Lolz, duno the file is in which person's locker. I have a feeling they didnt like my proposal very much in the 1st place and accepted it without too much consideration. Sometimes I feel like giving up oso, lolz, when I have a mental block and get confused about the course our actions takes, I turn to my grp members and I see blank faces =x. But it's a road of no return, die die we have to continue. But I have an idea we are gonna pull through, when I stop showing them my black face...muahaha. But I already done 80% pf the job 90% of the resource file comes from me. I want to attend meetings with purpose, with something substantiate to do. Not meet somewhere and brainstorm what to do. =.= We already done that months ago. Whatever did they think the GPP was? For the 5% marks only? Grrr, lemme finish the experiment report and fabricate some results.

Only yesterday I had quite an umpleasant encounter with some of my friends. It left me fuming mad for a few minutes and later I came to realise that well, the anger that I felt is the result of something that had snowballed for some time. The tiny weeny indicent that sent me staring daggers, rolling eyes and saying crude remarks was merely a catalyst. There had been many little unhappiness indicents that I remember subconsciously. Heck. I have enough problems at hand to be angry with people. Perhaps there is a lack of similarity between me and them. Anyway, I hate it when they pretend not to be something they are. Ambigous? Let me list an example. It turns me off