There is literature in everything

[music]断了的弦　by Jay Chou

Everythime I blog, I'm reminded of GP. And I always fail GP essays. :s Bad. i like GP, but that failing part is very demoralizing. Sometimes I wonder, if it is: We like something we do well in, or we do well in something we like. Maybe they are the same. lol.

Everything thrives on excellence. Interest thrives on excellence. Society thrives on excellence. Thats why sec1 pupils are taught what is knowledge based economy. =.= They shld be taught how to design logos. We all strive to be the best, in 1 way or the other, sometimes based on personal aspirations, sometimes because of peer pressure, or for sheer thrill? hahaha. But it's driving pple (ok, maybe just me) nuts. Drats T_T I wanna be a caveman. The average caveman can draw better than the average office worker.

I was in the middle of chinese lecture last friday when I was reminded that Singaporeans are a dull lot and singaporean students lack vocal skills. I seem to have a lot of ideas during chinese lectures, lol. Maybe it's because the lecturers have very imspiring talks, or I was simply daydreaming. haha. I thought, the students cannot be blamed for adhering to a system which emphasize academic grades. Sure, PW is intergrated into our system and I like PW. I love projects. But it's taking a toil on our other subjects. Teachers admit that. Then thay cut our syllabus. Then the teachers start to scorn us in class, talking about the past and how their workload was 1 thousand times heavier than ours. I always have an urge to stand up and argue with them about the SYSTEM. I like to use this word. Everytime things go wrong, blame system :x But er.. they would categorise me under "students who need counselling", so I better be a nice student and nod nod then smile whenever they look at me. =x

I was reading xl's blog the other day and I also thought of all she said about her school whenever we got out for lunches on friday. I began to dread JC life, hahaha. I love going out there and do the things, collect my own data, do my own analyse, make my own presentations and get a grade for thinking instead of cooping in the library and trying to memorise how to apply Newtons Law to maths. =( Well, maybe I'll get to be more active when I join uni. That shld be the case, lol. Whenever I have problems studying, I'll just tell myself, I look forward to uni. ^^ Thats when life starts.

Back to the problem of lacking vocal skills. I think students in the poly or neighbourhood schools have better vocal skills than pupils in the above average colleges. I excluded top colleges because I know that there are very good students there who would say something 100 times more rational than what Joseph said in the last school forum during MCV. But to expect students in AJC to speak confidently like scholars in RJ, that is not impossible, but very hard. The school atmosphere doesnt nurtures it. Priorities of students are alos only on things that contribute to report cards. We have 1 OP workshop and dats about it. Teachers in class rush by tutorials while we just copy. Of cos, lecturers do not enjoy being interupted by students during lectures since we have barely 40mins for each lecture. But I seriously think that we shld start cultivating such an environment in which students are encouraged to speak more. And I mean all students, not just handpicked ones. We could start with placing microphones in lecture halls. When students get used to it, it becomes a practice, then pple wont feel paiseh. The system cannot expect to stimulate thinking and creativity cells by just one workshop and yea, by handpicking students to participate in workshops. (Probably I wont complain so much if I get handpicked :x But hey, lol, I'm speaking on behalf of the other 90% of the population. But I can only blog about these here, cos the others dont care, as long as it doesnt affect what they score in 'A's. Haiz, see la, I have to lament =x) Then the adults (meaning any other person other than students) end up scorning us, critising that our life skills sux. I would have gladly post all these in the school forum and tell them that yes, AJ produces gd academic results but the other areas really sux. But from the start of the year till now, no1 has started a thread in the forums b4. I doubt that the moderators even visit it themselves. I once sent an email to one of the moderators. That was in June. Till now I havent got any replies. Wah lau, I feel like getting vulgar :x What joy is there in posting a thread when I know there would be no readers or rebutters? T_T See la, if there was an announcement saying that there are tips on the promos, 50% of the student population would log in to IVLE and the other 50% cant log in bcos they duno how to. Duh~ talk about moving towards IT era. 80% of the teachers have problems using the visualiser in the classrooms. But there's a national blogging competition or something. I think I'll go there and see wad I can yak yak on =D

To be successful and to be happy may not neccessarily equate in today's context anymore. Maybe I'll elaborate more the next time I feel like, lolz. In the modern world (now this ounds really cliched to me) there is almost no absolute anymore. Everything seems to have conjoined and formed grey zones. Like mercy killing. There wouldnt be a conclusion.

Singapore aspires to be the epitome in lifestyle. Lifestyle, meaning everything la, lol. But I think thats not gonna happen any sooner. We cant even match up to Hong Kong. The local culture is just not right. We cant say we have become the epitome in culture by boasting of Esplanade. Spirital advancement, they may be what we need. Just look at mediacorp, 谁家母鸡不生蛋. Wah zzzzz, wad sort of crude title is this of a show lor?! Okies I understand you are trying to get in touch with the masses here. But really, is that the kind of culture we want to instil in people? Hmm, btw I had seriously thought of posting to the local paper's forum. But er, sometimes I would look at my own writings and then feel chicken.

We live in HDB, or some wealthier pple, in condos. We all study, get diplomas, degrees, lament about the lack of ideal jobs and eventually join the already saturated population of middle class. We are all marching towards that. We = students here. Duh~ can we hope to get the Nobel prize by learning about titration curves? There are no more than 10 famous entrepreneurs in Singapore, there are no billionaires, there are no renowned authors. But I may be wrong. haha. It could be that I dont read enough. lol. Anyway, I write based on my current knowledge :x I'm used to having extreme views. But really, if I ask you to name just 5 successful Singaporeans on the spot, would you be able to? Maybe in the small pool of the the local industry we would be able to. That, we would have to spend a lifetime to achieve, in Singapore. By the time we throw the most anticipated tea-party in the trade, we would have become horny grandmas. :p

I would have loved to minor in Philosophy, but thr isnt this course in NUS. So :( And they allocate hostels based on CIP hours. T_T Shards, I hate flag days and working part time at the zoo doesnt earn me any hours :s And even if I get a room, I cant choose my bunkmate. Haiz, sab gonna take up medicine and I'm gonna grad ard 3 years ahead of her~ How to fulfil our dreams like dat?! Lets run faster! But er...effeciency and impatience do not equate.

Bz bz everyday and my tongue seem to fail me. My mind often goes -------- whenever it's not on studies. Cant rmbr wad I did last aug, must be slogging away too. Haiz...AJ dont have enough activities. Comparatively, even RV has more interesting activities to participate in and dats being sarcastic :x But but, my profile in RV looks so much nicer ler T_T My profile in AJ, up to date, only has this international competition new south wales thingy, argh~! And that debating series not counted! And that chinese culture quizzy! And tennis T_T I really run slow :s 39sec! When the fastest girl can run 27sec :x Now thats really bad, isnt it? lol. Miaoxl, if u happen to be reading this post, just laugh :x And they handpick pple for some activities and competitions. Boohoo, T_T maybe they dont hav confidence in students in the APTS list. Drats T_T NOW, I appreciate RV. At least I think I'm better recognised there :x In AJ, in science stream somemore, there are very little chances. Well, at this, some pple gonna bark at me again :x For scoring the best in 古文. lol, I already told u all I like 古文 mah, but when I said that, u all gave me that sian face :x I wanted to tell u all that I read it like a storybook, but I'm afraid I'll get stoned :x LOL. OK la, I haolian abit =x hehe. But that result was a warm welcome, after scoring F in physics (which I thot I was doing rather gd in.. at least in CT2) I wonder what would happen if I accepted readily the troupe master's offer 2 yrs ago to learn cantonese opera under him =p

I can anticipate more boring things these 2 months, not to mention more stress. Haiz, I need endorphins pls! haha. Thats not something one can get verbally =( Spirital union is important, but it is not everything. It is a building block, but not the finishing act. Haiz, well, I can only think alittle, dream alittle and smile alittle. 孤单北半球。haha.

I wish I can trade in Pure Mathematics for Nancy Drew. Well, I think fumin gonna think I'm crazy if I started counting down to November. And my sister is learning swimming now. I'm abit envious =x She's getting a nice tan and with her nice flowing long hair, well, and I'm the nerd at home locked behind my bedroom door and emerging like some undernourished prisoner from time to time. And my dad! Every sunday morning I have to be awakened by his loud discussion with my bro. And shards, my bro is in the basketball schoolteam. My mum was a sprinter in her sch days. My dad is the best shooter and swimmer in army. Was I picked up from the streets?! :x And I'm busy returning daddy's email while he and bro feast their eyes on the latest hp models at suntec. lol. But, I'm supposed to be studying now! :( I wanna be a travel writer. But I'm messing ard with dangerous science. hoho.

Back to studies. :( Cant run away from that T_T