9.23a.m.

I'm in school...so I can't type freely, drats =.= with so many pple walking behind and around me, but it's the only place I can access to computer at this time.

There have been loads on my mind when there shouldnt have been. I'm rather exhausted and lost focus for the whole of yesterday. Lost track of my agenda and forgot that things havent changed. So I wzsted yesterday doing what's not on my agenda. Drats. =.= I musnt forget that nothing had changed. There was a tiny ripple, but still, I forget my agenda. As long sa I'm able to bear in mind what I have on my agenda, I can pull through, obviously. What took me so long to realise?

Crying is a sign of weakness, so... one musnt cry, in fact I'm rather too exhausted to cry. Well, reading my blog must be quite an exhausting thing to do, there seem nothing cheerless to look upon. Maybe I should change my blog's skin, it's too bright to be gloomy.

I cannot lose my head again. If what I thought would come wouldnt come, it wont come. I cannot forget how I reached my conclusion and how I formulated my agenda. If I forget that process, I'm wasting my days again. It's rather hard to find my head again when I lose it. Now you see why I sleep so much. I'm tired. All these run through my mind daily. Whether for the whole day, or just a few minutes, inevitably they will ride on my mind. But I musnt forget I cant do this. It's not on my agenda.

Whatever the case, I must not lose my mind this week. I cannot flunk again, if I do, I'm a goner. But I'm so tired, that I feel rather sick. I'm writing in circles. And I'm waiting, waiting it out. Not sure what would come while I'm waiting. But I hope something would happen, it's better than nothing happening. I'm getting dizzy. And the place is getting too crowded for comfort. I'll hav to leave now. =_=