The two of you are unstoppable, whether together or separately...

A good friend of mine recently got himself a girlfriend. Well, he's a great friend I met on the net and he is those kind who would come give me an ice cream treat at 12am and attempt to spank me when I'm feeling too upset. I got abit too used to confiding in him, so now that he got himself a special someone, I feel a wee bit neglected. =x I didnt feel like intruding on his private time too much also. haha. I'm really glad for him, he looks clearly happy and his girlfriend, is really his sassy girl ^^

I dont quite enjoy getting involved with arguements and persuading. However, my studies require me to think critical and to constantly debate, so I end up exposing all of my weakness. haha. Makes me feel how small my world can be and how shallow many of thoughts seem. Hmm...

After struggling for months with my emotions and sorts, I'm reverting back to my old life. Well.. one couldnt say old life... but it gets rather hard when one's emotions are easily affected by a person. And, I learnt that being too stubborn hurts. So, I ought to just relax and laze around, dreaming about when I can get out of AJ. =) I havent really made up my mind to apply for political science. But since I'm in no great hurry, I shouldnt trouble my little mind over it yet.

It's really kind of tricky when one deal with a person who has unlimited patience and laziness, or coolness or composure or confidence or simply laid-back or whatever you would describe. Sometimes I wish I can grab him by the collar and shake that smug look out of his face. I cant deny I'm an impatient person. But I learnt that this kind of working style really isnt healthy for me. Sometimes I can't control my mood and make rash decisions and sometimes say things which arent me. But because of so many reservations, I eventually turn into the silent and shy girl everyone knows, lolz. And when I do show my true colours people tend to get irritated, then they start to wonder where the nice, meek girl they used to know went. Haiz... haha.

I believe everyone has at least 2 personalities. So... what you see on the surface may not be completely true of a person, haha. So... it's good not to judge a person too early. Always give chances =p If one doesnt let his immediate judgement blind him, he may well find himself a new soulmate. Sometimes it takes only 2 weeks to know a person. But still, that would be too short. I recommend taking a lifetime ^^. It may be quite impossible but hey... life's not gonna end tomorrow. Singaporeans' lives are too fast paced. I think it would be impossible for to me make any true friends in JC, there is only this short a 2-yr to know them. I believe a relationship needs to be heated and cooled and reheated and cool again. To test if it is durable. So... walk slowly.. there's still a long way to go.

Haiz... if some things can't be changed in short term, dont waste energy chasing it le. =( Life is unexpected. Now... I'm just lazing around, waiting for the day to come when I can give full speed in chasing what I feel I should not let go of again. Currently, I simply have no capital to ask for anything. =(