My Office Job

Upon calculation, my present salary really is mediocre. I realised I made a mistake in calculation previously. In fact, I am earning lesser than my fellow mates. AND 15% lesser than the other temp who got the job from a job agency. AND the salary is $90 short of my expected salary.
True, I'm not here to earn big bucks, but the pay shouldnt make me feel shortchanged. You see, because of this shortchange, I am slacking here instead of doing my work. Plus, there are so much backlog that I wouldnt be able to clear half of them by the time I resign and go back to school.

11.21pm.
Eugene left about 2hours ago. And for the past 2 hours, I managed to clean up the house a little bit while my mum talked on the phone and my sis glued her eyes to the tv. The thing that made me angriest was my dog.
Technically she is still a puppy at 7months old (her Barkday is 7 Nov 2007, IF I didnt remember wrongly) but she is displaying all the traits of a usual spoilt DOG. She rejected all the premium kibbles that I tried to feed her by hand. The packet that I bought was only a trial packet YET after 2 months I, or rather She, has not managed to cleared more than half a packet. Besides her food pickiness that is constantly getting on my nerves, I'm getting more worried that she will not get the nutritions she need. The most idiotic part is to convince my mum that feeding chicken for 3 meals a day, 7 days a week is a very bad idea, AND adding ONE PARTICULAR brand of SUPPLEMENT POWDER to the chicken ONCE IN A WHILE will make the meal nutritious and wholesome is a very very ill informed choice.
The whole feeding affair is getting extremely complicated. I wrote a routine, wrote a timetable, stuck it on a huge coloured paper on the fridge, bought all the suitable kibbles with my money, and begged, reasoned with my mum to follow it when I am not around. BUT they are not working because my mother INSISTS with her actions that she is correct. Her reasons are written above by me. And those warped reasons are getting to me. I just told her, about 20mins ago, to FOLLOW IT starting from TOMORROW. It is ok if the dog doesnt eat. It is ultimately the master's will versus the dog's will. I am determined not to lose or giveway because I believe I am making a wiser decision than my dog (or my mum in this aspect). She needs the nutrients to be healthy. No one can ever argue to me that feeding chicken and chicken only, boiled somemore, is good and enough for a growing living thing with blood, muscles, bones, teeth and fur. Chop off my head before you tell me that my puppy will grow healthy and live to a ripe old age living on the KOK KOK KAY. My dog's lifespan is already very short. I see no sense in trying to shorten it any further. My dog sleeps with me, listens to my command, follows me, trusts me. I think I should do what I should do for her. Fight for her life with her.

Anyway, updates to my last post, I am already holding a job. Worked at it for a week and it is at MHA, finance dept as an accounts admin. The post title is quite flashy but I forgot it. The job scope is very suitable for me too. I think I am enjoying my very first office job. Previously my jobs dont require me to have a desk or a desktop.
I like the small office environment setting too. Only 7 of us in total and all of them are very nice, friendly and chatty. 2 of us are temps while one is an NSman who has to work clerical posts. The remaining are perms including 1 head of this level's finance dept and her humourous yet clever yet SLACKING assistant.

Shall continue tomorrow...too tired.

Another Jobless week

Another jobless week, yes another jobless week!

All the companies are having fun of me. Recruit Express is the biggest clown and Avenue Employment Services is kind of a joke. The first one seemed to have striked me off the calling list after Day 1 and the latter keep stuffing the job that I dont want under my nose. And one does get sick from snatching toys from a dog or running after them to clean their mouths. I have splitted my earnings with my mum. Honestly she's having more zest in this than me. Anyway...my earnings are...disappearing to nowhere. They're not in my bank nor in my money box. I can only assume that they are in the pockets of online shop owners and the neighbourhood bakery.

I like the mini egg tarts at Swee Heng. Very nice although a little too sweet. The pastry skin is like soft cookie while the egg pudding is wobbly and smooth. The combination is very nice especially with cold fresh milk. Yummy. The box I bought yesterday is a bit off standard, but thats not going to deter me from buying more. $2 a box and I can savour every mouthful happily, why not? And my sister is taking every chance to snip one off whenever she justifies. So out of the 6 tarts in the box, I only get to eat about 2. Thats $1 each =/

I realise that my life now is confined to online dog forums, emails, online shops, HOME and Bukit Panjang Plaza. I cant afford to go anywhere. And eugene didnt win top 3 in the battlefield competition, meaning, my Yuki Yaki is down the drain again.

Haiz...an office job please! Or should I? I'm scared to be tied down you know..even though I'm rambling right here..my logical side realise that I'm actually quite free and lucky with the present "job". So..should I look forward to any incoming calls or not?

平常心。。。

P.s. I keep having bolts of inspiration for my novel. But ever since losing the stuff I have in my thumbdrive months ago, I havent written a word. I really don't know how to start again..

Lonely ahh..

Yesterday I caught a midnight movie with eugene at cine - Prince Caspian. Rofl. It really is a children's show. The plot is simple and straightforward but the 143 mins was quite exciting except for some people who left the hall and didnt close the door and MALES keep visiting the toilet, their silhouettes keep sifting around like irritating lurking flies waiting to be swat away.

Abit lonely abit bored. I need work. I need motivation. I need stimulation! Still waiting for response from seok's company, haiz. And this morning my puppy chewed through her collar WHILE wearing it. Darn..haiz.

Viewed domon's blog. Cant tag. ERROR!

Viewed ah min's blog. Cant tag. Dunno how to blend in :(

Viewed yl's blog. Cant tag. Last tag was mine and she didnt update.

Viewed seok's blog. Cant tag. Cant associate myself there also. :(

Viewed my blog. Empty and hollow and deserted.

I can feel the wind sweeping against the cold hard ground. Small whirls of dust and sand circling the yellowed piece of stary newspaper.
The windows are shut. The glass is stained with dirt and there's a huge crack at the bottom of the wall.
The air is filthy and choking. It is stale and thick. Even the sunlight has problem penetrating..

I wish I can take up drawing or photography. A picture says a thousand words and I have so much to say..
But a good teacher is so hard to come by..

A few pics of my pup

Time for a little June summer post

Well, yes, it is June.



Normally this time would be the happiest time of my year. Like, say, 2 years back. When I am in normal school thats it.



Now, it is, hmm...vaguely put, rather busy. Not to say that I was not busy during term time. But now that it is holiday, I am still busy. Probably the others are the same. All my beloved friends are on temp jobs. Me...I decided to opt for something new and unorthordox. (Well you know what I mean if u see my other blog)



Really tired out and busy. I work 24hours a day. Business have been good. I am booked daily. Funny thing is I have little or no earnings. I think I have spent most of them. Either on food, or some clothes, online stuff, celebrate Eugene's bday, gave some to Mum, gave some to Sis and none to brother (except for $100 to buy a new mattress). Duh...I am left with practically nothing.



Not to mention the earnings part, my time is completely spent too, on the dogs. To the extent that I have not been to a proper outing with any of my friends because I have to stay home 24/7.



Been wanting a stable job with stable income and fixed working hours. Think I will start soon. Even if it is data entry job. Well, it is nice wad, with convenient transport and so many friends there. Just for a mere 2 months, I can stick to computers and office hours. And I would have more time for bf and friends. They are complaining a lot already. Eugene keeps nagging about me having no time since I have the dogs. Well, I spent a whole afternoon shopping with him after he complained. We ended up spending $200+ in a single afternoon. Muahahahaha. I think that detered him for the moment about complaining me not going out with him. =x But the dogs part...well...he thinks he is seconded now. Cos whether I open or close mouth I will talk about dogs. Think he is abit sick. But, haiz...wish he could understand more. It is very stressful to take care of a number of them. I need an outlet. It's a job and I am doing normal job ranting. Recently he wentto Genting, without me. I rejected him cos I have to look after...yes, dogs again. My mum simply said no, flat, when I say I need to take a day off and ask her to cover for me. It is a dead flat kind of no that cannot be rejected or over-ruled.



Seriously, I am not a hard core dog owner. You would have seen worse. Those that treat dogs completely like human and baby kids and control strictly every aspect of their dog's life and appearance alike. Well...I cant. I would treat Fluffy like my best friend. But yes, she is still a dog. But there is a special bond between us. The first pic here, taken on the first night I collected her (she was still named Lucky then). There she is, sitting under my legs, close to me, so shy so scared so apprehensive about her future.

She and I...both of us, looking ahead towards an unknown future. The date was 20 Feb 2008.

I have no other pictures of her on the first few hours. I treasure this photo.