This is going to be a normal post dictating my life as it is now.

(dictating as in say aloud, or read out in that manner...and not as in Hitler that kind of dictator)

It all started when I was clearing my table top. I was shuffling and filing my notes on Introduction to World Religion when I simply felt a slight discomfort in putting them away. I have not touched on them for as much as I thought I should have. And now, they are going to be put away for a zillion years until one day I clear my room and decide they should go down the rubbish chute. Face it. Will you exactly take out dusty notes and refer to the facts on them after you have put them away?

So, I kind of couldnt bear to put them away.

My final paper for this module was last Thrusday, and now I am not going to see the notes anymore. I should have spent more time on them shouldnt I? But time has lapsed so fast! I cant believe this semester is coming to an end already. It shall officially be over when I take my last paper tomorrow on Remote Sensing and Earth Observation. Then for hell I dont know when would be the next time I talk about processing satellite images.

It is all happeneing too quickly. When time passes so soon, do we learn anything? Is this the true function of university? Stuff everything into our head in the shortest time available and then issue us COMPUTER PRINTED certs. Gawd, the certificate which we spent thousands on even has a template somewhere on a hard disk. We are template-made in accordance to the stupid, narrow society that the obnoxious people in the garment created in pursuit of their own thought up glory and success. We are small tiny soldier ants (if we are lucky) working in slavery for the queen ant, in return for food and rented apartment and a security system which wouldnt work if there were no worker ants like us.

Ok, this is supposed to be a normal post not a post ranting about cocked up politics in Singapore. Anyway, I am just fedup that SMRT is charging me $1 for a simple trip. Up from 60cents to 70cents to 90cents then $1. Heck. And the stupid SALTY laksa that the china man is cooking in the stall "Authentic Local Delights". PUI. And even the guy who is delivering our kitchen gas is a china man! Am I living in CHINA???!!! And hecks the guy who puts up his legs in the MRT train seats and the woman talking louding in her hp on the bus are all PRCs!! Am I dreaming or what??!! HEY GARMENT!! THESE ARE THE FOREIGN TALENTS HUH?

These people are eroding our culture our life and are slowing degrading our image now! Is this what we have exchanged for? Is this the price of the "development" we are seeking? What kind of development? Developing towards economic success? When there is a crisis now? And no graduates have ever felft worse about their jobs prospects? Our blue collared parents are worried nuts over their jobs bcos the chinaman are snatching them away. Then, we, whom they have worked so hard to put us to university, striving to be white collared workers, are worrying our ass off over the potential jobs that we may never hold because crazy countries like China are messing up the economic equlibirum with their literally neck-breaking speed. Government, open up your eyes and see what we have exchanged our lives and cultures for.

Ok whatever. Back to my tabletop.

I tidied it up alot and even used a spray to clean the desk. I am amazed how black the rag was when I wiped my table. For people who know me, well, you know a clean and tidy table top is not what I would put in my personality profile. Whoever made up the idea that Vigros are clean and neat freaks, is a freak himself.

Here's a pic of how my table top looks like now:

Quite clean isnt it?

And while I was breaking my back cleaning my table top, here's my dog taking her routine afternoon snooze on my bed. Somehow dogs always have this mentality that the beds of owners are more comfortable than their $50 dog beds:

And it was her first bday last Thursday. Zuzong was super nice to treat her to a can of Cesar.

Here is another pic of my table top. This is the right end of my L shaped built in cabinet plus study table top.

It's all the ugly wires and dont ask me why I have a laptop and desktop side by side. Haha.

I have already cleared up a large amount of table top ornaments if not you would be seeing a lot more. Anyways, I found the christmas card Fumin gave me last christmas. It is the purple one that is peeking out from the top right hand corner of my laptop screen.

I'm quite excited that this Christmas I would be giving out more cards too. It's a tradition for me to give out cards to people who matter. Christmas is a time to feel loved and remembered. I have some cards to give to friends in secondary school too. The important ones who have accompanied me during the most wonderful time in my teenage life. I always thought that life in River Valley is the best school life I have had so far.

I feel like I am in Thanksgiving mood now.

Though absolutely no one I know celebrate Thanksgiving in Singapore. And, perhaps the Singaporean Christians would but no offence, I...cant really accept their teachings or rather, their ways of teachings. When I feel scared, surprisingly, the image of Buddha is the one that made me return to senses.

Anyway, NO TALKING ABOUT RELIGION! Back to the topic of remembering friends.

JC life wasnt that bad anyway.

A whole bunch of crazy kids, and I went out with Fumin last Thrusday after our papers. I dragged her to this local fish shop in Clementi that I frequent and she said all the fishes are scary, hahaha.

We didnt see any mollies that time and mollies are the one kind of fishes that I think can fulfill ah min's requirements of cute small round fishes. Those that you google are the American/Eurpoean mollies. They arent cute. The local Asian ones are much better looking. But too bad I couldnt convince ah min to start a hobby of keeping aquarium tanks. Haiz...Sad, it would be nice to have a friend with the same hobby! Even Eugene is not interested -.-

Anyway, although I am feeling sad that the semester is ending soon, I am also excited that tomorrow is the last paper I have for the term because after that I can officially spend time on my hobby!

Remember the planted tank I had? I think I am obsessed with aquascaping. Anyway, here is an update of pics of my tank!

The one with the round shell, yes, dont freak out, is a freshwater snail. It is a Bumble bee snail named due to its colour and pattern of the shell. I bought 2 of them actually. But the darned aquarium boy picked a dead 1 for me. So I am left with one. The snails dont eat leaves, they eat algae, just like the Otto fish (the one that is looking in front and has a frog like face). Cute isnt it? The one between the snail and the Otto is a Bumblebee fish. I bought it cos, it looks cute.

The one on the right hand side, one and blurred out, is an Albino corydora. It sucks. It keeps digging out my soil and causing a mess in the water. I have since transferred it to my mum's tanks of African fish.

More pics of my tank. Not exactly best quality pics cos I am only using a normal digital camera.

Shant bore you all any longer. The next project I have, will be another planted tank, this time, with freshwater ornamental shrimps!! The shrimps are not the kind of market prawns you see. The shrimps we keep in aquarium tanks are small, cute and colourful.

Next time, when I finish my second setup, I will post more pics again! =)

Happy! Tomorrow is last paper and it is an open book test! After that I can go shopping for my new planted tank setup!

Problematic Student

I feel like a dumb ass.
First: I remembered the wrong date for my final exam!! Luckily I was reminded the last night before. And I sat for the paper.

Second: I missed the submission dateline of a project. I was not reminded. I lost 12 marks.

Arse.

When was the last time I had a treat by my bf? A dinner...a shopping...or a movie?
It set me thinking, I just had a quarrel with him, over money.
Even when I ask my bf on a date to somewhere, I have to pay for the petrol, down to the last cent.
Disappointing.

Extension of my aquarium hobby

Well many of you know I own a dog. Some of you know I rear guppies. But i bet none of you know now I have expanded my hobby to include planted aquarium tanks.

I got poisoned by this aquatic forum that I joined. So with the immense help of someone special, I set up this tank! Cost about $60 to setup =/

BUT I hope our efforts will pay off eventually =)

I am here again today, because I have ran out of things to do to relieve my boredom.

Just would like to say...I am very sick of hounding on my bf. He may be sick of it too and so do I. I just really do not understand why he can laugh so happily when I am plain down and bored. Every" "lol" I see makes me feel just worse. When he is having fun and company outside, why cant he think about me too?

I would only like to include that my life is quite miserable now. Besides the disappointing university life I am leading, my hobbies also do not perk me up. I am sad to say that perhaps I am really a no life person. All I want to do now..is for my bf to accompany me to look at fishes in the local fish shops..But he is too busy. Too busy to spare time for me. And I am sick of asking for his time...I even have to sms him to tell him to sms me. How much more pathetic can my life get? Does he even know or understand that I cry everyday?