Desolate Office, Sick Workers

Today only me and my 2 supervisors effectively. The other present guy is the NS guy and he slacks all day long and came in late this morning.
Anyway, nicely put, the 2 supervisors are supervisors, frankly speaking, they are just the 2 workers of this unit. The only 2 with the knowledge and authorithy to do the formal stuff and things. Well because this unit is small and often neglected by the upper levels..

Anyway, Nancy is sick today. She is the only remaining "low rank" perm but she is beginning to throw her weight around because she is the only "formal" normal staff for the 2 supervisors to order around.

She goes on MC more frequently than me. I only took once this month. I was the sick person yesterday (and today). Perhaps she got the germs from me...but hey..I am here today. I think she finds her workload too heavy, although honestly speaking, she dumps all the tedious calculations onto me what..

And perhaps if the 2 supervisors spends less time talking and chatting and grumbling, they may find that they can actually generate more reports and process more documents.

I am just a temp wad...I just do the routine stuff of calculating and generating reports...all the funny things that they are complaining of...I also cant do..
But then you also please approve and process the reports that I did leh..

Sick at work

Today is the second day of bidding and the close bidding period of the first round, round 1A. I have only 2 modules to bid for this round since I have decided to give up the core electives offered this semester. They "fry" the bidding points to high and the vacancies are really too low: about 15% of our cohort only, approx 25 seats for 150 people. Crazy.

Today I forgot to bring my hp and I woke up sick with flu. Watery eyes and runny nose in office now...

Fight Back To Work Part I

Today is the 2nd last Monday of work at MHA. Frankly speaking, it is quite nice to work here. And I feel quite accomplished for not resigning before the date I promised. But...I still feel like quitting lah..I like to slack mah. So here I am, slacking in office and awaiting the day I can go off in glory.

But my eyes are quite heavy now. I bought an iced coffee but I think I got a stomachache from drinking it. Now my stomach is churning and I feel like going to toilet to put put.

10mins later...

I am back from the toilet. Anyway, there are no handicaps on my level but on every level there is a handicap toilet so we always go to the handicap room to enjoy personal washing sink and big half length mirror.

Problem is...
The toilet bowl in the toilet will regurgitate. So just now I went to put put, ya...you guessed what happened. Everything surged back and a few splashes of 'water' reached the floor. You know..waste water..
Disgusting.

Anyway, I dressed like an Auntie today, complete with soft baggy office pants, fully eccentuating my big butt and short fat legs. Plus my black blouse is not doing wonders and the design did not cover up my tummy despite the colour.
And I dont put make up to work. Plus I was so fretting over the spree which I organsied. Equals to nearly swollen eyes and dark eye circles. Plus today is a bad hair day. My hair is not soft not neat no matter how I comb...

So, I look fully like a part temp Auntie who came to work temporarily at the finance dept for whatever dubious reasons the others can cook up in the lift.

And I have to see my own reflection in each I take the lift. Whoever thought of inserting mirrors as all 4 walls plus doors in the lift...

Another mental exercise

In the office now. 4.06pm.

I feel very very tired. My head is swimming. I wonder if it is the effect of the strips of office light shining down on me or the idiot air von vent blowing directly down my head. But I think the reason could be I spent another $18 on a SINGLE lunch just now cos the dept is celebrating the farewell for a colleague. My wallet bleeding now. We ate at Ichiban. I admit the stuff is oiishi but I have to spend so much! Haiz..very sad. And I feel like vomitting now.
And I feel so sleepy. Maybe because I chatted with somebody until 1.30am last night. My head is very pain. Or maybe because I am troubled by the money matters. I wanted to put my remaining salary in a fixed deposit account. But I dont have enough funds. I thought and thought about it for so much my head is so pain and I feel so exhausted.
I admit defeat. I wont open a a fixed deposit account. How much money can I earn with $1000 initial deposit and $50 montly deposit? Not much. Definitely more than putting in savings bank..but my next coming year will be very very tough. I wont have enough to eat dont have enough to spend.
In short, I dont have enough funds to save. I really need to cut down on my spending desperately.

I am really desperately exhausted now.

An Empty Office

9am in the morning. Raining cats and dogs.

Today is the first time it rained when I came to work. Technically, it poured. The hem of my long pants are all wet. While I was on the bus, all I could see was sheets and sheets of water sliding down the windscreen of the bus. The swiper worked hard in its tedious chore.

Now that I'm in office, the scenary is even more bleak. There are only 2 of us today. Me and Wei Shiang, our unit's jolly deputy supervisor. Our sup Sarah is on her second day of MC. Emily is clearing her leave. Derek is in school camp and I havent seen his shadow for 2 weeks. Nancy is on MC also and Larry the NSman is no where to be seen. Hahaha...

Things Neglected, People Forgotten

Nowadays so sad. Everyday work, go home, feed dog, settle Petedge things and my bf not free to even talk to me or msg me. Very disappointing. I dont remember me ignoring him for one year when I was in school. I dont remember giving him the cold shoulder even during my own exams, which I doubt are less important than his normal day revision. I dont remember ignoring him completely when he needs my help, support and consolation.
I forgot to bring my hp again today. Then I called him in the afternoon, not wanting to disturb him during morning lecture and not wanting him to worry although he kept casting me aside and ignoring me these few days. Then he said he didnt msg me. Neither did he remember my office phone number. Neither did he sound very happy when hearing my voice. Instead he sounded like I should get off his back as fast as possible.
This is really sad. I dont believe and I dont understand why one can give his loved one cold shoulder and appear to forget her altogether. I dont think a person can be so busy that he cant balance his life. Or maybe I am expandable. In that case, I dont think there will be a need for me to bring my hp to work anymore.
Is it because I love him so much unknowingly deep inside, that each morning when I wake up, the love renews my faith for him and I still have hope? Yet each day, hour after another, it wanes until I find it so unbearable and so painful I cant work anymore. I'll stop to think. I want to lose hope. I want to cast these hope away so that I wont have to day after day, be disappointed over and over again. I dont want to build up anymore hope. Each day, you act like nothing great happened. Oblivious to my pain.
A relationship needs to be sustained. Are you so busy that you cannot sustain our relationship anymore?

Puppy "Haircut"

I cut off the remaining of the top knot on my puppy's head last night. Haiz...

It went like this. 1 or 2 weeks ago, while I was tying my dog's hair on her head into the famous Shih Tzu top knot (aka coconut tree), I discovered 4 or 5 matts (small extremely tangled up knots) on her head. I think the reason is I didnt comb her fur properly before tying the knot for her every morning. Haiz..

But I still have to tie the fur for her if not she cant see with all the fur falling over her eyes. However, a week ago, she started to take out the small rubber band by herself! She will use her hind paws to scratch scratch at the top knot furiously as if something is itching very badly there. I reckon it's because she feel extremely unconfortable. Imagine your hair has tangles yet still tied up. Maybe she felt that way.

So one fine evening after I returned from work, I decided to cut away those matts. So one by one, I located the matts and cut them away at their roots. And the result was... only a few small patches of long fur left on her head. =/ Nothing much for me to tie. But I still had to because the fur is long and will drop into her eyes if left untied. But but but! The top knot will be a very very very small bunch. It is not short, but small...as in..thin. How to tie like that?

For 2 days I tried. But the small and thin coconut tree keep falling apart. So I hardened my heart...and cut off the remaing long stray fur on her head :( So her visibilty will be better and the fur wont tickle her eyes and make it tear.

Haiz. I'm sad about it. For so long I refuse to cut her fur on the head because I wanna tie the coconut tree for her. Plus her coat is not like a normal shih tzu coat. I think because of her mixed blood with a short coat chihuahua, Fluffy's coat take extremely long to grow.
But now I have to cut it all away.
She still looks cute. My mum thinks Fluffy looks like a sha niu aka silly girl now bcos I cut her fringe all short and straight. Haha..
Fluffy wouldnt stay still and she knows...when I hold the scisscors near her. Her head will siam left siam right dont let you cut. So I have to snip off very quickly.

But at least I saved a bomb on her grooming. I groom my dog myself. *proud* Cut nails, cut stray fur on her face, head, paws, butt. Everything myself hehe. My 8 months old dog is not a show dog mah. She is also not of those kind of top notch quality with excellent superior genes. Her coat is also not those kind of dense and long and silky kind. But...no need to keep her so beautiful, but can keep her clean and neat with my big scisscors, muahaha.

Gonna buy a shaver too. So that I can trim her paw pad myself also. So groomers wont earn any money from me haha!

Slack ah slack!

Yeah yeah yeah!!
I'm now slacking in the office. At 9am now, I am the only person in the office! I have it to myself alone muahahah! I dont even need to start work yet can blog hehe.
Actually there should be another 2 perms here but they slowly strolled to the canteen 2 mins ago. I managed to get them to buy a teh for me and now I am slacking in office. Dont tell the others, hahahahaha!
Whoa shiok..can slowly sip ice water and wait for the others to come, then I start work >.<

Hopefully supervisor wont point out anymore mistakes. She's an auditor with 10yrs experience mah...haiz. One look and she can spot the things which I didnt and hand the cases back to me :(
Abit guilty and sad. I want perfection in my work!!

Bcos IAS system is down today

Bcos IAS system, the predominant system which my unit and which I am using all the time is down today, I get to slack. SO here I am slacking in office and updating my blog bcos a self-proclaimed :x number 1 fan of my blog complained that I didnt update my blog. So I need to type something and let him read. Hoho..

So today's topic is...my sleeve. My black jacket has a zipper each on the cap of the sleeve and when I wear it in the office and try to type, it is damn noisy! I need to rest my wrist on the keyboard table so it creates so much noise I cant stand it. But I dont like to take off my jacket also bcos I am sitting right under the air con vent and I have already fallen sick once from blowing too much air con on my head. The guy behind me, claims he tested my seat last friday when I was absent. Now he proudly announces that he is sick because of ME. I didnt ask him to use my seat or test the credibilty of my sickness.

No la, anyway my purpose today is to report a very important event. The event commenced yesterday. And it is a once in a decade family outing, to EAST COAST PARK! Gawd...it really is the first time we went to ECP together as a family. And someone with diarrhea also came and rode on the double person bike with me. The bicycle was so fun. Initially I was so scared of falling off and being unable to coordinate with him. But eh..it wentr naturally haha. And the ride was so super funny with him putting his legs up and I pedalling furiously behind. And the wind blow so comfortably and coollingly in my face. The only bad thing is his muscular back blocking my front view completely so I can only peek out from left and right.

We brought Fluffy along also. Honestly I think this little pup bonded our family. And mom and dad acts like they have a new baby in the house hahaha. Dad even asked, yes he asked the puppy, whether she wants to be carried or walked to the car when we packed up and prepared to leave ECP in the evening.

Will upload abit of pictures next time. Mum is busy admiring the pictures she took yesterday.

4th day of July - Another Office Day

Yesterday I spent most of my time in office dealing with a shopping spree for pet stuff. I was the organiser and I realised why now that people wont organise it or organise it for very high exchange rates. The process and tabulation is really quite tedious. So people either dont want to organise, or else must earn a marginable profit from it.

Anyway, because I love online shopping so much, I decided to get a credit card of my own instead of getting my dad to deposit money into my paypal account each time I need it. And the only card that I can apply for is the NUS debit card. It's a Mastercard. So I went to apply online and found out that my bank account needs to be signature operated. Mine is still thumbprint since I opened it when I was in Primary 1. But all POSB closes at 4.30pm on weekdays. So I did a little search and realised that there is this thing called the evening branch. Hahahaha. Meaning some branches close at 6 or 7pm. Needless to say, at 6pm, I would be just getting ready to leave the office. And the nearest evening branch to my workplace that closes at 7pm is the one at Ngee Ann City. I wanted to get somebody to go with me. However I failed. And as a result a quarrel ensued and I was quite quite upset and disappointed and...you know what is xin hui yi leng?

Ok anyway, I got there by myself. Alighted at Orchard but came out from the wrong exit. Ended up walking a very far distance to Ngee Ann. I went to look at the shops directory but couldnt find the POSB listing at all! So I decided to go up to the 4th storey (from what I recall from the website) and try to look for it. I made the wrong turn and went towards the direction of Crystal Jade Restaurant and Art Friend. Needless to say again, I made the worng turn. So I had to cluck cluck cluck in my high heels to try thr opposite direction, and I got it correct. =/ The queue was long but the bank teller was very nice. I proceeded to change my account to signature operated. To tell u the truth, I have been practicing for 2 days in the office my signature, but when I signed, it was still ugly and not really what I had designed and intended. Shucks. But all else is successfully and I handed in my application for the card too. Hopefully it would be successful.

I woke up late for work today. It was so stupid. My parent were in the living room all the time, opened my bedroom door for me and switched off my air con but they didnt wake me up =.= So I slept to 8am until my dog licked my face all over. I was abit mad so I asked why nobody woked me up since they are all awake and knew I had to work. They replied: "We tried so many times! We asked the dog to wake you up lor!" &%*&$&@&#

2nd day of July

Ok, I am typing from office again. Somebody just walked pass and gave me a heartattack though. However that person has already handed in her resignation and will go to the private sector in a months's time :x

Anyway, I hereby announce that eugene is quite a nice person anyway. He allowed me to rip him off yesterday at yukiyaki. However he lied to me about his quota for the day so I feel like slapping him. To think I even felt sorry for him when I was in office and received his sms. Anyway, he told me about being RIPPED off again by his SIM canteen. $2.50 for beehoon and an egg. Yucks. Reminds me of my canteen at MHA. The only noodle stall that sells presentable stuff (besides the malay and vegetarian stall that always SELLOUT their food at LUNCH TIME. ) ya, the stallowner is super snobbish and sells food that are soldout again. So everything on their big big menu is not available and people have to buy plain old noodles and yi mian and ban mian. And their stuff is ex without the sufficient ingredients. Wish I can open my own stall! I suddenly feel my desire to open a canteen stall being revived. I'm sure I would have good business and I would present presentable food with a presentable service attitude.
The canteen stall is not operating at market level. There is a demand, but there is no supply! There is no improvement too. Only thing is that they hold the monopoly. Sux. I hate monopolies.

July's First

I went for lunch today with my colleagues after eating tom yam yi mian for the past 2 working days. And I saw 2 items which caught my interest especially much. They revived the desire in me for luxury gifts. One of them is a watch. We went to window shop at The Watch Shop. I saw many watches, some of the designs really made me admire them. I remember wanting to buy one, but my savings didnt quite make the mark. I think I'll buy one with my next pay check. Either a Swiss or a Denmark watch. On the way back, I saw necklaces. Yes, those high end ones which are advertised in big beautiful and classy posters. I really like them. I dont need an expensive one but just a classy and beautiful pearl pendant necklace imbeded in crystal and platinum. It aint ex. I can buy one with one day's pay. But for some reason I perceive it as a romantic gift. A symbol of sweet loving thoughts, a symbol of being in love. A sign of romance , a scene of beauty when a man put a beautiful pearl pendant necklace on his lover's neck. But a person didnt want to buy it for me. After such a long time together, I dunno when was the last time I received a gift from my boyfriend. When was the last time he treated me to a nice sit down dinner too? Why did he not let me feel any thoughtfulness and lovingness? Are they too expensive to give? Or what? I dont think these expectations are so high that he cant meet. He simply dont want to. Makes me damned just to think of it. It is not even about the present itself. It is about the thought. Where is it? Devoured by your horns.