Another mental exercise

In the office now. 4.06pm.

I feel very very tired. My head is swimming. I wonder if it is the effect of the strips of office light shining down on me or the idiot air von vent blowing directly down my head. But I think the reason could be I spent another $18 on a SINGLE lunch just now cos the dept is celebrating the farewell for a colleague. My wallet bleeding now. We ate at Ichiban. I admit the stuff is oiishi but I have to spend so much! Haiz..very sad. And I feel like vomitting now.
And I feel so sleepy. Maybe because I chatted with somebody until 1.30am last night. My head is very pain. Or maybe because I am troubled by the money matters. I wanted to put my remaining salary in a fixed deposit account. But I dont have enough funds. I thought and thought about it for so much my head is so pain and I feel so exhausted.
I admit defeat. I wont open a a fixed deposit account. How much money can I earn with $1000 initial deposit and $50 montly deposit? Not much. Definitely more than putting in savings bank..but my next coming year will be very very tough. I wont have enough to eat dont have enough to spend.
In short, I dont have enough funds to save. I really need to cut down on my spending desperately.

I am really desperately exhausted now.