July's First

I went for lunch today with my colleagues after eating tom yam yi mian for the past 2 working days. And I saw 2 items which caught my interest especially much. They revived the desire in me for luxury gifts. One of them is a watch. We went to window shop at The Watch Shop. I saw many watches, some of the designs really made me admire them. I remember wanting to buy one, but my savings didnt quite make the mark. I think I'll buy one with my next pay check. Either a Swiss or a Denmark watch. On the way back, I saw necklaces. Yes, those high end ones which are advertised in big beautiful and classy posters. I really like them. I dont need an expensive one but just a classy and beautiful pearl pendant necklace imbeded in crystal and platinum. It aint ex. I can buy one with one day's pay. But for some reason I perceive it as a romantic gift. A symbol of sweet loving thoughts, a symbol of being in love. A sign of romance , a scene of beauty when a man put a beautiful pearl pendant necklace on his lover's neck. But a person didnt want to buy it for me. After such a long time together, I dunno when was the last time I received a gift from my boyfriend. When was the last time he treated me to a nice sit down dinner too? Why did he not let me feel any thoughtfulness and lovingness? Are they too expensive to give? Or what? I dont think these expectations are so high that he cant meet. He simply dont want to. Makes me damned just to think of it. It is not even about the present itself. It is about the thought. Where is it? Devoured by your horns.