Again the weightiness on the heart

Kind of heavily depressed today. I guess anyone would feel that way if you are relying on someone for comfort and relief but that someone ignores you. Even when the ignoring is deliberate or explainable, the damage is done. Soon it will escalate into something worse. It will store and build up in your heart, one day, when you least notice it, you have already built up so much grievance that you will break free.

Most of the time I try to understand, but things are just so hard. I need you to be there to cope with me, to help me, to provide a solution for me. But...you are just not there.