Very depressed over work

Things are bad

I wonder if it is just my bad skills in essay writing.

Haiz sian...

My group mates ask me to be the editor for the first essay assignment for the law management module. But, end up when they submit the essay, they didnt submit the essay which I edited. They re-edited everything and added back all their own paragraphs to submit.

Worse for me, when we get back the essay, the essay got A. Although I wrote the intro and conclusion and they didnt change it..I couldnt help being offended.

Yet the thing is, my essay for religion, I only got B-. Last sem my essay for history i also got B.

I am like...starting to feel very very depressed... Whether is it my own bad skills in essay writing or what..

If it is my own skills that are bad, what should i do? Feel like crying...

And those people in my group are meant to be my friends. I feel a bit depressed that as a friend, they didnt even bother to tell me whats wrong. Are they too polite or something? Or secretly in their hearts they think I am a really bad essay writer, a bd group mate and they dont dare to mock me in the open?

Very disheartening...

What can I do? I feel totally not confident of my work anymore. The attraction of writing no longer appeals. No matter how hard I write, I score bad. Does it mean I have to write badly, or write without a heart, or write without creativity or write a super dull essay in order to score A+++?

Really feel very crappish now.