Unsuccessful Communication

No understanding is reached. Nothing pierced me. The words bounce off me. I dunno how to be pacified. But shouldnt the outsider know better? Shouldnt the one idling during holiday spend more time on the problem? Why am I, the one struggling with semester assignments, be frustrated over all these?

I know. The idling one doesnt see a problem. Everything that I raise and throw to him gets dissolved. Once he wakes up, he slips back into his own routine and his body assumes there is no problem. I, on the other hand, take the problem to bed, cry over it, and wake up feeling mentally exhausted, and am still haunted by it.

Unsolved problems do not go away. They stay on and they build on the later problems. The root of the problem, may be me. But it will affect both parties. If nothing is done, the problem will just escalate. You are letting the problem escalate.

As long as you continue on with your lifestyle, you will exclude me from you. You disconnect yourself from me, from others also. I would have to wait 14hours a day for you, every day, because of your stubborn life routine. You ignore others.
You want me to compromise also. How? Shall I switch all my lessons to night classes? Sleep at 4am and wake up at 6pm everyday? Yeah? Thats precisely what you are doing. Unfortunately, I lead a normal person's lifestyle.
It is impossible for me to adhere to that. How do you want me to accomodate you? If I can tolerate this, it means I do not mind getting out of your life. It means I can do without you. All your actions are pushing me to that brink.

I have a few pointers to remember:
1) He will only wake up at night. Do not expect him to contact you in the day.
2) He will not msg you when he hangs out with his friends in the day. Do not expect him to msg you.
3) He does not like to msg. He prefers to call directly. And he will only call at most once a day when he likes it. And most of the time I would be furiously preparing for the next day's lesson or it would be time to sleep.

So what is my conclusion?
Never sms him even though I miss him or if I feel lonely. I would only be asking for nothing. Dont call him, because if he is sleeping, he wouldnt bother with what you say.
Perhaps I should sms another guy when I need comfort, when I need help, when I am lonely, when I need to share happiness, when I need to share sorrow.
Since it's your lifestyle, you cannot change. How do you expect me to accomodate you? Be a waiting machine and wait 14hours, live forever to wait for your 1 phone call which may come or may not come?
I'm not that pathetic.