After Exams Now

A bit sad. Post exams joy has not kicked in yet.

Wish I can have some fun during this holidays. But...the person who should matter is not making any effort. Despondent...

Honestly I really really cannot understand the logic behind being ignored completely during exam period. Is that an excuse? I cant comprehend the vast amount of difficulty in picking up a convenient communication aid and speaking to or texting someone. You have to study 24 hours a day for every single minute such that you cant even spare 1 minute to show concern for someone?

Bet you wouldnt say to joking or chatting around with others on MSN.

Makes me very upset just to think about the scene. You sitting in front of your desktop, holding a book but frequently chatting with the annoynomous on the screen.

Crap.

I have trouble in sleeping at night. Does anyone know how terrible insomnia feels? Btw, it is now 4.53am when I am typing this sentence.

Time is spent on burying myself in a lonely hobby of fishkeeping. Even after acomplishing the setup of one tank, what joy is there if there is nobody to share it with? What point is there if nobody is ever there to appreciate? The person who should be making my life special....is absent.

I probably should head back for my independant life. So that I wouldnt bore people up with what they call expectations that cant be met. If there is no one in that place, there wouldnt be expectations linked to that role. Then we can all be free to do whatever we like without anyone nagging by the ear.

Ya there is indeed a lot of things to be done. I plan my two christmas parties, one for sec sch frens one for jc clique. Wondering if I should combine..

Then I need to go pick out some new Christmas decorations and probably get some beautiful mugs at Diaso...miss shopping there.

Then I need to wait for the arrival of my moss and start setting up my shrimp and planted tank. A bit excited but quite sad also cos I have to do it alone and there is no one there to share the excitment.

Then I need to continue to tidy up the other part of my room, mainly where all the 5 book shelves are.

Then, I want to head down to Kinokuniya to see if there are any new arrivals worth reading =)

If there are no books worth reading then I will go dig out my cross stitch to do. There was a scenary of spring day which I have been stitching halfway since last last year..

Another thing...I need to find some small but nice rocks for my tank, so I may need to visit some local fish shops. Again alone. Getting used to it already. Beg people might as well beg myself.

Then, I have to deposit some money into my bank account. Been delaying it for so long.

At the same time, I have to get my glasses repaired. My old ones which I am wearing temporarily since I stepped and crushed my new glasses, are causing me a headache. And I have no money for new contact lenses.

Oh ya...feel like heading down to Watsons and pick out a nice hair conditioner. My hair has been a mess since the last weeks of the semester. All the datelines make it impossible for me to upkeep it.

Then I will have to pick a day to watch a movie and enjoy a jumbo hotdog. I miss eating it. And the Famous Amos cookies too. Perhaps I should bring my sister along too as a treat so I wont look too dumb watching a movie alone.

Ahhh....and I want to plan a day for another family outing to ECP.

Lastly, I would like very much to continue writing my old novel, even though my thumbdrive is still spoilt. I will have to patch things up from my hazy memory. Grace, dont hate me! Wish me luck.

Thats all for now. And I am picturing only myself in all those activities. Yawn...dawn is coming soon. Should probably try to sleep. If I see the morning light coming I will definitely not be able to fall asleep at all. So long..